As I walked through the park

As I walked through the park, I felt the sun burning my skin… I couldn’t barely open my eyes due to the light, it was a stupid idea to take a walk in a day like today. Boiling hot summer afternoon. I needed to rest before I continued my way. I saw a shadow and I sat down, better, I fell down… I was so tired, but I needed to make my body suffer a little so I would forget my painful thoughts for a while. When I looked up I found out that I ended up seating almost in front of your house. What were the odds that during an aimless walk I would wind up there… I tried to look through your windows and all the painful thoughts came back, almost instantaneously. The day that was so warm and clear and suddenly got dark and cold. I felt a chill in my heart… I realised that the most difficult thing that I have ever done in my life was not getting over you… was that you were better off without me. I can’t cry anymore, my tears went dry… I should go back to the damn walk… I remember the quote from that old book you gave me years ago, when we were young and naive: “There is a reason why all things are as they are.” I kept walking, closing my eyes to the sun in order to avoid the pain of agreeing that indeed, everything was happening as it should be…